Showing Tonight: Les Bitches 1968

Burial at Sea. Osama bin Laden dead?

Release the pictures. Because I am dubious. The fact that he was immediately "buried at sea" makes me dubious as well.

I can understand that perhaps America is finally trying to be respectful of the take down of a inflammatory icon, but previous history shows that America has had a ballsier take on this. Pablo Escobar's death is an example. Granted the mercenary group took him down were not technically American, they certainly were sponsored by the US. Saddam Huessein's execution was widely spread across the American media.

So far, the official storyline is: "'Finding a country willing to accept the remains of the world's most wanted terrorist would have been difficult,' a US official said. 'So the US decided to bury him at sea.'" Which means that America was too much of a pussy to accept his body.

The Guardian (UK) reports, "Senior US officials told news agencies that his body would be disposed of in accordance with Islamic tradition, which involves ritual washing, shrouding and burial within 24 hours." Again, this seems excessive care for someone who supposably declared War on America and launched the biggest pre-emptive attack on US soil since Pearl Harbor. Why? House of Saud. America, who's your daddy?

I think it is important to remember that Uday and Qusay Hussein, sons of Saddam Hussein were not given the same care and concern that bin Laden was. Their bodies were embalmed 11 days after they were killed by US forces and later their bodies were shown to media.

After all this, I feel that we are just being told another lie. It became clear, no more denying the truth of your own beliefs, on 9/11 watching the news unfold. Seeing the details, the images that belie the truth. Seeing the small smoking hole in the Pentagon and being told a jumbo jetliner crashed through it. What? Being told a jetliner crashed in a field in Pennsylvania and just seeing a smoking ditch in the ground and no debris. Being told in a newscast that Building #2 has imploded and fallen, 20 minutes before it did.

Lies told to us by our government? I accept it now. The key is to finding out what it is they are trying to hide or what it is they want to manipulate to gain their advantage.

Cynical? Yeah. America, Fuck Yeah.

May 1st, 2011 - Osama bin Laden dead.

Photo by Tina Fineberg via The Daily Herald. Scene at the site of the WTC the night of May 1, 2011.

We mourned for so fucking long that I can't deny that there is some jubilation in celebrating Osama bin Laden's demise, if for nothing else but to say good bye and close a chapter to a fucked-up ten years. I can’t help but feel some vindication. Naïve, I know, I know, but just let me believe for a little bit, just for tonight.

There are highs and lows here. The other feelings are of dubiousness of what this is really about because I have a definite belief about who/what was behind 9/11, reflection - my whole world changed that day, sickness, hospitals, sorrow, nursing someone back to health...a friend of mine and I were on the phone tonight remembering our stories again of that day...so there is a feeling of healing now but not without reflection, not without reliving it.

In Touch

Sometimes there is so much coming at me, it is hard to stay in touch with myself and how it makes feel. I've been juggling, what seems, an inordinate amount of personal dilemmas for the past 3 months and in that same time the world has seemed to have exploded. From the shooting of Giffords, Wisconsin's labor protest to Tunisia, Egypt, Libya and Japan's tsunami and nuclear meltdown. And the earth actually slowing down! The world is on fire.

I am not even sure what I want to say about this right now, I am wound up tight...the event of this last weekend and the ex have shaken me...there are things one doesn't want to admit...the fear. Being afraid. Being alone in all of this chaos. This is not how I planned it. We were supposed to be the ones that our friends leaned on. Our home was to be the safe haven for us all to escape to, and now it's...the center of our fight. I can't stand fighting with him anymore. I want this out of my life. And now the house...all of this is making me feel so torn when I am there. It was ours. We built it together. With love. I thought it was love...it was from me. I always wanted him to be part of it and in my life but he made his choice. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm tired of being sad. I'm angry. And of this is the least of my worries right now. Not even I like this post.

R.I.P. Elizabeth Taylor

Sad to see her go. She lived fast, died brave. Fierceness all the way and true compassion.

Showing Tonight

"The Swinger" starring Ann Margaret

She is ridiculously ravishing. A voracious tiger hunting her prey one moment and a soft kitten playing with yarn the next. She takes feminine wiles to the genius level. And those black dancer tights that are just barely see-through? Don't get me started...

"Rainy Day to Night" Play List

Curated but in no particular order:

Billie Holiday “The Very Thought of You”

Nine Inch Nails “The Fragile”

Chet Baker “Almost Blue”

The Hives “Hate To Say I Told You So”

Kings of Leon “California Waiting”\

The Strokes "Heart in a Cage"

Johnny Cash “Hurt”

Marilyn Manson “I Put a Spell on You”

Metallica “Turn the Page”

Burial “Night Bus”

Bat For Lashes “What’s a Girl To Do”

TV on The Radio “Wolf Like Me”

Elliot Smith “A Distorted Reality is Now a Necessity to Be Free”

Death Cab For Cutie “Transalanticism”

Linda Ronstadt “Desperado”

Sarah Vaughn “Black Coffee”

The White Stripes “I Don’t Know What to Do With Myself”

Johnny Cash “Sunday Coming Down”

Nancy Sinatra “Bang Bang”

Amy Winehouse “You Know I’m No Good”

Gossip “Listen Up!”

Bix Biederbecke “Singin’ The Blues”



Photo of Bix Biederbecke, photographer unknown.